I’ve been standing here in front of my computer for at least an hour trying to decide what to write about today.
I’ve started and stopped a couple ideas. I’ve clicked around the many open tabs I have on my computer. I’ve checked my email numerous times.
All just trying to find inspiration to write about.
I’ve had a streak of publishing a new article every Monday for nine weeks now. That is what I pushed myself to do this year.
I almost gave up and broke that streak.
I thought that missing one week would not be a big deal. I still made it to nine weeks in a row. I’ll just pick back up next week.
I closed the tab but then reopened it immediately because I didn’t want to break my commitment to you and to myself. You probably wouldn’t have noticed if I did, but it would hurt me more.
So I decided to write about what I’m struggling with. It shows I’m not perfect. I don’t have all the answers. I don’t have a perfect life.
There are so many areas of my personal and business life that I need to improve if I want to achieve certain goals in my life. I know that if I want to write more, then I can’t just decide on Monday what I’m going to write about and hope inspiration comes to me with a great idea.
That’s a horrible strategy.
My day, up until this point, had been going well.
I slept great. I had a nice run in perfect weather this morning. I had a delicious breakfast with my wife in our new home. I spent time at home doing a little bit of work before coming to the office.
Then at the office it’s like work mode has disappeared. I knew today I needed to publish an article but I had just been standing here for an hour and came up with nothing.
It’s frustrating. I know that this is not how I should be writing. I know I need to better schedule what I’m going to do when I come to the office. I know I can’t decide on the spot what to do.
Even though I know this is not the way to do it, I have done it for over two years now. I am getting in my own way and holding myself back.
I’ve approached my day deciding what to do as I go for as long as I’ve been a full time online entrepreneur in 2013 and I know it’s not the best way to do it.
I’ve read books and articles about what the most successful people do and I can’t remember a single one approach their work like I have.
They don’t get to the office and decide “Ok what am I going to work on right now?” They don’t do that for a few minutes only to remember an email needs to be replied to and do that real quick before jumping back.
With writing, I know what I should be doing. I should be writing every single day. I should have a batch of articles ready to be published on Monday for the next 3-4 weeks. I shouldn’t be writing articles on the day I want to publish it. No serious writer does that and if I want to be serious about writing, then I have to model what the successful ones do.
I know all this, but I haven’t changed my ways.
So that’s another opportunity for me to grow. I’m currently 25 days into doing ten pushups a day. I’ve done 13 days of running at least one mile. These are challenges I set for myself to exercise more. I wanted to get into the habit of exercising and do so by starting small.
So I’m doing good in that area but there’s much more that I need to be doing.
As always, I’ll share my ups and downs with you here to help you out. I want to be a leader for you. So that’s why I keep learning and doing so I can share with you what is working for me so you can do the same in your own life.
I do want 2019 to be a year of transformation and I know I can’t keep doing the same old things and expect different results.
I feel better at least for writing an article today. It’s not what I had planned, but I do hope that this is a kick in the butt for me to start changing how I do a lot of things.